Well, this should be an interesting day. I went to bed at 1:30AM and woke up at 6:15AM without any prompting by anyone. I tried to go back to sleep, but I am up because I could not go back. I guess I am going to get a shower and start getting ready for the day after I make this entry. I never expected to wake up so early. I hope the new alarm clock goes off today. I tried to set it again last night.
The next journal prompt from the series I worked on.
Day 3: Soft Eyes
Journal Prompts and My Responses
What would you do if you had more free time?
Complete craft projects
What important activities, chores, trips, or creations have you been putting on hold?
Developing my self-esteem and self-confidence
Going to college
Painting on canvas
Writing a novel
Getting a new car
Do you think you will ever get around to doing these things?
Maybe, it depends on money as well as time. I am financially oppressed so doing things is difficult. I am working toward accomplishing these things.
List the wild or forbidden activities that call to you – from swimming naked to jumping out of airplanes, to eating all the chocolate you crave.
Teaching a class
Shooting at a pistol range
Going to concerts
Moodlings… On The Simple Abundance Companion
Some unlikely sources of inspiration and what in particular touched me:
- Watching a puppy play in total freedom and abandonment
- Reading odd articles on the internet which made me think
- My hallucinations and delusions left me with some very wild ideas
- Staring into a candle flame brought thoughts to the surface
I recognize gratitude in others through smiles, endearing touches, and such
I incorporate these signals of gratitude into my own life
A gift continuum – from the most frivolous of purchases, to the more practical, to the intangible – all things I wish I had:
- A house of my own
- Anew car
- A few new ink pens from Levenger
- An Alaskan Malamute or a Weimaraner
- A Bose bookshelf stereo with multi-cd-changer
- A refillable portfolio from renaissance-arts.com
- A class ring to replace the one that disappeared
- A color laser printer that can print digest sized pages
- A Nikon digital SLR camera
- Subscription to GRANTA
- Subscription to Publisher’s Weekly
- Subscription to The New York Review of Books
- Subscription to SALON.com
- Yearly vacations
- College tuition for Alex
- An easel
- College tuition
- Money to pay off debts
- A closet organizer
- Picture frames
- A career
- Unwavering faith
- Remission without medication
- Clarity of vision
- Memory improvement
- Possibly a makeover for my room
- A definite makeover for myself
- Enough money to publish Alex’s first book through Original Creations Publishing Corporation
- Some new scented candles
- Lots of new programming for this computer
Five things for which I am grateful today:
- Mom ironed some clothes for me
- I found some interesting books on the new arrivals stack last time I went to the library
- I woke up early this morning
- I found space in my room for the mugs I bought a few days ago
- My room is homey
That is all for that entry. These are very revealing entries, because they voice some private thoughts I rarely express even with myself. The list of gifts could continue for a while. By the way, I may start this journal process again, it came from a very good book I picked up at Borders one afternoon in late 2004. Most of these entries are from last November. It was my first trial at daily journaling for a long time.
Thanks for reading and have a wonderful day. I am going for that shower really soon. I have new clothes I bought during the week to wear today. The Target trip was very productive, even got some dress pants.