I am doing fine, just staying busy. Last week I had three days off but those were frantic with errands and appointments. I guess I should try to write more, but somehow rest seems more important.
I had a fast change artist try to take me for twenty dollars at work, but I knew I gave him correct change so he did not get by with his act.
I ordered Alex’s cap and gown and a few invitations to his graduation. The cost of that amazed me. It is a good thing I am working.
I find myself wishing I had never purchased the Jeep. It does not get as good gas mileage as the Eclipse did and the payments are very high. If I did not have the Jeep I would not have to work at K-Mart. I am worried that I may not be able to afford the Jeep after Alex leaves next May.
I met with the supportive employment person Friday and filled out paperwork for that program. I really do not know what they can do for me, but hopefully with their help I will find a better job. One with hours that are more regular and accommodate my being home in the evening and that also pays better than part-time at K-Mart.
I have not been feeling very creative. Seems like there is not enough time for such luxury in my days right now. I am a person who has to have time to create, it is not fast work for me. I miss the times when I could sit here at the computer for hours without worrying about everything else I should be doing at the time. Now computer time is a rare thing. Some days I don’t even turn the machine on at all.
I’m dreaming of unfettered days
When you are the only person
On my schedule and my only task
Is to give you unending pleasure.
I’m dreaming of moments when
Kisses are the most important thing
That I have on my to do list
And you are my only customer.
I’m dreaming of a time that
We can spend more than a few hours
In one another’s company
Without worry of repercussions.
I’m dreaming of truly being yours
Basking in the pleasure of our love
With no need of secrecy or deception
Because we can live our truth.
I’m dreaming of you and I
Joined in a love that has stood
The test of time and adversity
And still leaves us breathless with longing.
© Jo Ann J. A. Jordan
Monday, September 26, 2005
Well that is all I have to say right now. I have to go to work in a little while and should probably get something to eat before I go. Hope all is well where you are and that you have wonderful days.