Update and A Poem

 

Things here have been rocking along. My Mom made a trip to Thomasville to visit my aunt and came home Monday, February 27. When she got home, she was standing at the top of the steps on the porch and next thing she remembers she was fallen on the ground. She would not let me take her to the hospital, but last Friday I took her to her primary care physician because she was in a lot of pain. He thought she had fractured her tailbone. I am surprised he did not order an x-ray to find out for sure. Today I took her to the neurologist and he is ordering tests to see what happened to her. He thinks it may have been a stroke or a seizure. I wish I could have prevented her getting hurt, but I had just gone inside to carry in some of her luggage. Life is so fragile.

 

Mom’s acid reflux is much better since her digestive care specialist put her back on Reglan. I am so glad that she is more comfortable in that way now. Her tremors do not seem any worse so it should not be detrimental to continue this medicinal regimen.

 

My MRI and sonogram results came back and they were normal. That was a relief. If only I could get over my chronic fatigue syndrome and schizoaffective disorder, I would be fine… but that is only wishful thinking. I saw some people today at Mom’s doctor’s office that made me very grateful that things with us are as good as they are. You do not have to look too far to find things to be thankful for, there is so much suffering in the world.

 

I have been doing some buying on eBay. I bought a camera bag, some shoes for Alex, a calendar for Mom, and a computer game for Alex. I have only bought two other items on eBay and one of those I had to dispute because the person sold me OEM software as the complete item. I am thinking of trying to sell some stuff, even got a book on how to do business on eBay.

 

My love finally got back from his trip and I saw him on Saturday. We had a long day together and it was wonderful. He cooked for me again and it was delicious. We rewired the mast on his sail boat. It was sunny enough I got a touch of sunburn from being out on his deck.

 

Alex went to regional competition for JROTC color guard on Saturday. He leads his team and they placed third so they are going to state competition.

 

I had a very unpleasant experience with my psychiatrist’s office yesterday. They called Monday afternoon to confirm my appointment. Then yesterday morning they called to tell me they needed to reschedule my appointment to Thursday because my doctor would be out of the office yesterday. I was not happy because I also had an appointment to see my new counselor and it is an hour drive to their office. So I tried to reschedule the appointment with the counselor. She said if I did not come to the appointment as scheduled, I would have to pay anyway. This made me livid. I called the office back and asked if I could see my doctor’s nurse and they would not answer me. I went to the appointment with the counselor with the full intention of telling her to f**k off. Luckily the drive gave me some time to calm down. I was still mad as hell when I got to the office, but I was in control of my anger. I think if doctors can cancel appointments at the last minute without being charged for it by their customers that the same should be fair for patients. I told the counselor that I was angry and that I did not feel I had been treated fairly. I told her that I had come to see her with intent to curse her out and tell her off. She said she could understand why I was angry. I am probably going to see her again even though I am not happy about the way she handled the situation. I feel our session yesterday was mostly a waste of time because we spent so much time on my anger over how I had been treated. I stayed in the office after my appointment hoping to see the nurse and imagine my rage when I learned the doctor was in the office and could have seen me. I saw the nurse after a two hour wait. I will take the situation up with the doctor next time I do see him. I am sick and tired of his office staff handling things without an ounce of respect for me. If I were not a long time patient and did I not really like my doctor I would find another place to go, in fact I am thinking of it anyway. I am very proud that I did not go ballistic on everybody in the place yesterday. Anger is not an emotion I handle well, but I was neither loud nor impolite to anyone even though I was enraged.

 

Life Is

 

Life is more fragile

Than an egg shell,

More fleeting

Than a glimpse,

More precious

Than crown jewels.

 

Life is only

Temporary,

Without guarantee,

A passing breath,

Fickle as

A spring breeze.

 

Life is just

An hour given

To treasure,

Or to waste,

So little time

Gone in haste.

 

Life is glorious,

A celebration

With dazzling

Displays,

And tearful

Moments.

 

Life is

For each of us

To live in fullness,

Giving our best,

Thankful for

Our blessings.

 

Life is a gift,

A wonder

Never to be

Squandered,

A time to be

Valued above riches.

 

Life is

All we have,

And all that

Is important

Passes between

Its open and close.

 

© Jo Ann J. A. Jordan

Wednesday, March 8, 2006

 

Hope all of you have a good week.

 

Smiles,

Jo Ann

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  1. #1 by Shari on March 11, 2006 - 12:35 pm

    I agree – if they can cancel appointment, you should be able to, too. Glad to hear you are doing well, hope your mom feel better.

  2. #2 by Jo Ann on March 11, 2006 - 7:07 pm

    Hi SharBear, I wish it worked that way, but like many things in life the system they adhere to is not fair. My Mom is still in a lot of pain. She really hurt herself this time. I took her for an EEG today. Hopefully they will be able to discern what happened to her. I hope nothing like this happens again.
     
    Thank you for stopping by.
     
    Smiles,
    Jo Ann

  3. #3 by Sugar on March 11, 2006 - 10:35 pm

    Glad you\’rel doing well but sorry to hear about your mom.  Hope she\’s feeling better soon.
    I agree with you on the doctor appointment also.  I would have been absolutely irate.
    Love the poem!  {{ }}

  4. #4 by Jo Ann on March 12, 2006 - 1:26 pm

    Kimberly, I am nervous, worried about finances after Alex goes in the Marines. I can\’t seem to stop feeling like disaster is coming. Mom is still in a lot of pain, thank you for your well wishes toward her. The doctor appointment fiasco was just another example of how his office is poorly run. I am glad I am not the only one who finds the situation intolerable.
     
    Glad you liked the poem. First one I have written in a long time.
     
    Smiles,
    Jo Ann

  5. #5 by Cynthia on March 12, 2006 - 7:00 pm

    Good and interesting stuff you have to write about. I like the  poem.My Mom has just started taking Reglan. Does your Mom have any vicious side-effects from it? Keep writing and I hope you have a good week.

  6. #6 by yanyan on March 13, 2006 - 7:22 am

    I came across here! I have a friend whose name is also Jo.
    I like to read about the stories in your life! Life is like a box of chocolate,isn\’t it? I hope your mother will get well soon.
    Can will make a friend? Welcome to my space.
     
    yanyan

  7. #7 by Stephen on March 13, 2006 - 10:11 am

    JoAnn –
     
    You had every right to be upset / pissed off because of their one sided scheduling policy. I had a therapist double book me and after a lot of drama from him because I knew his best friend it turned our sessions into tests of my anger control let me tell ya! I\’m glad you had the time to spend with your love – that always makes for a great day. 🙂 I\’ve been having a hard time replacing my psychiatrist as she\’s about the only one in a 50 mile radious that accepts my insurance. I\’ve been looking for a therapist to no avail, none accept my insurance. I think you\’ve ran into the same thing. I\’m also schizo-affective Bipolar, not a great combination as you already know. Anyway, hang in there girl … patience goes a long way to sanity. 🙂

  8. #8 by Sugar on March 14, 2006 - 11:41 pm

    Hey Jo Ann… was just checkin\’ in on ya.  Hope alls well.  Sending hugs your way. {{ }}

  9. #9 by deniset on March 17, 2006 - 11:13 pm

    I have dreamed of being a writer my entire life and sometimes I can actually grasp the ring only to let it slide through my fingers.  I write what i feel, and I am trying to be happy with that.  I have had some therapy and I am supposed still be in therapy… Can\’t afford it right now.  Your space is great and I will be adding you to my reading list!!

  10. #10 by Red on May 14, 2006 - 12:47 pm

    Long time no see! I hope all is going well for you and that you have a wonderful Mother\’s Day!

  11. #11 by Red on May 28, 2006 - 1:08 am

    Stopping by again…haven\’t seen you online lately! How\’s everything going?

  12. #12 by ANP™ on June 22, 2006 - 3:20 am

    Jo, I keep hoping to hear from you…just want to know that everything is okay.

  13. #13 by barbara on July 19, 2006 - 3:48 pm

    Looks like you are taking a break here to. I bet it\’s hot there in Georgia. The heat just takes the creativity right out of you.
     
    Hope you will check in from time to time to read your \’mail\’. Your friends want to know you are doing OK.

  14. #14 by barbara on September 9, 2006 - 12:34 pm

    I still have hopes you will return to your blog and let all of us who care about you, know what your life is doing these days. Keep the faith, my dear Jo…

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