Archive for June, 2010
I am thankful:
1. I found some wonderful new books at the library.
2. Mom bought me lunch at Sea Breeze, so I had a delicious meal of shrimp.
3. We avoided the traffic around the construction near Sam’s and Wal-Mart because we did not go there.
4. I have nice clothes.
5. I have Hope to love.
6. I have the intelligence to find opportunities to save on purchases and so make the small amount of money I have go further.
7. Alex is a Marine.
8. I am able to give to others.
9. Mom is still alive.
10. I have a place to live that is cool enough to be pleasant in the awful heat.
This should not take long since I did my share an entry on Monday and caught up with everything. Yesterday, I woke up at 3:00am, but went back to bed and slept until 8:15am. Mom went out with June and I vacuumed while she was out. I do not like to vacuum when she is home because she hates the noise the Kirby makes and she complains about how I do the job if she is here. Hope and I walked three miles even though it was very hot outside. I had a small glass of wine before I went to bed and found that even that little bit affected me. I think my wild days are all over. I have become respectable, responsible, and usually helpful to others.
Today, I woke up at 4:55am. After eating a warm Moon Pie I logged into Facebook and spent some time with that. I did some reading, then strapped on my iPod, put on headphones, went out and walked with Hope. On our second mile, I took Ko-Ko with us. On our third mile, it was just Hope and I. I read my book on that mile. I fixed lasagna for lunch. I finished reading Shameless by Karen Robards. It was a very good love story, where star-crossed lovers conquer problems. I enjoyed reading it. It was the third novel in a trilogy and I had not read the previous two, but it stood well alone. I caught up on my email and started a new book. I ate leftovers from lunch for supper. Hope and I walked another mile while I read my book. I took a shower so that Mom could get her bath in the morning. I am rather relaxed and decided to write this entry. Mom has had the television on incessantly today and the darn thing is about to drive me nuts. I think I am going to my room until she goes to bed.
I hope all of you are having a good week so far.
I have gotten somewhat behind so I am going back a bit. On Sunday, June 13, after we ate the subs June brought, we visited with her a while. After she left, my nephew, Jeremy, and great-niece, Jayden, came by. Jeremy checked out the circuit breaker for the bathrooms and tripped it, turned it on many times. He also turned the bathroom lights out repeatedly. It seemed to work so he just said if we had more problems with it to call him and he would come out with a replacement breaker. We had a conversation about my possibly moving into town in a condominium after Mom is gone. After thinking about it some I really do not like the idea.
Monday was a quiet day. I read and computed some.
Tuesday, Mom had an appointment with her primary care and we got some refills on her and my prescriptions. We ate lunch at McDonalds. I took Mom for her haircut at Fantastic Sam’s and decided while there to get my hair cut too. It was incredibly hot so Hope and I did not walk. I finished reading Shiver by Maggie Stiefvater. This was a very good young adult novel. It was a love story and I enjoyed it very much. I am reading some young adult novels because there were a few weeks that the library had no new novels in the adult section of new arrivals. I gathered up a gift bag full of goodies for my meeting with one of my classmates.
Wednesday, I took Mom into town to meet June. I got to Wendy’s about thirty minutes before my classmate so I sat and drank a Diet Coke. When Jana arrived, I gave her the gift bag. She insisted on buying my lunch, which was very sweet. We sat and talked a long time. She apologized for being mean to me when we were in school. This really touched my heart. I have long since forgiven the way I was treated back then, but I know the bullying and taunts I was subjected to has effected how I relate to people to this day. I almost never feel comfortable trying to make friends and I go out very rarely alone. I have very little self-confidence and a very poor self-image. After a while, we went to Borders and did more talking. Then we browsed around the store and pointed out different books we had liked. I was glad to discover she has become a reader too. After I walked her out to her vehicle, I went back into Borders. I had a 40 percent off coupon and looked for something to use it on. I searched the writing section, but found nothing I did not already own that interested me. I went to the art section and after a while of looking, I found a book I had been wishing to buy. It is Colored Pencil Painting Bible by Alyona Nickelsen. I had checked it out of the library a while ago but had to return it and wanted to own it. I picked up a graduation card for my niece, Leigh, too. I got caught in awful traffic because of road construction on the way to the library. I checked in books and re-checked them out. I went back through the construction traffic to Sam’s where I dropped off some prescriptions and did some shopping. I really got carried away by book desire and put The Passage by Justin Cronin and Insatiable by Meg Cabot in the buggy. Then I saw the most beautiful red London Fog coat. I was going to come back for it another day, but they only had one in my size, so that went into the buggy too. I went to the pharmacy, picked up Mom’s prescription, picked up my prescriptions and paid for all my sinful purchases. It was rather late when I got home so I read and computed some. Hope and I missed our walk again because of the heat.
Thursday, we went to the Post Office and mailed a bill. We went by the bank and cashed Mom’s check from Medicare for $250 because of all the prescription expenses she incurs. We went to Sam’s, and the traffic was even worse than the day before. We picked up Carrie Leigh’s graduation cake and some ice cream. We were trapped in traffic waiting to leave Sam’s for about an hour. When we finally got home I decided we would avoid Sam’s while the construction is going on. I read some and did a little computing. Mom started complaining about an earache before she went to bed.
Friday, Mom’s homebound buddies, Wendell and Frances, came for their monthly visit. Mom’s ear and throat were hurting so I called and was able to get an appointment to see the nurse practitioner. We went to the appointment and found her ear was not infected, but that it appeared she might have a sinus infection. We got prescriptions for an antibiotic and eardrops. We went to Rite Aid and filled the prescriptions because of the construction traffic around Sam’s. Mom went to Leigh’s graduation from Technical College. She, Leigh, and her family did not get back here until around 9:30. We had cake and ice cream together and I took several pictures. After Leigh and family left, I had to read and compute a while to settle down. I finished reading The New Good Life by John Robbins. This was an excellent book about living in these times. It was not so much financial advice as practical advice. I very highly recommend it. I know I will be using what I learned to make my life better.
Saturday, Mom went to her Sunday school class meeting with her friend Betty. I read a lot and did a little computing. In the evening Hope and I walked one mile.
Sunday, Hope and I walked two miles before it got very hot. Mom went out with June and I did a lot of reading. I finished The Book Thief by Markus Zusak. This was a wonderful young adult novel. It was set in Nazi Germany and told the story of a young girl who faced much tragedy but also had many beautiful moments. The book was narrated by Death. I loved it. I did my thankful list, even though it was really late. Hope and I walked an additional mile in the evening. I jumped on the trampoline for a few minutes.
Today, I woke up at 4:55 and ate breakfast. I went back to bed and slept until 11:20. I have read and computed a good bit today. I caught up on the email I had not read for the last few days from Journal Writing. Mom is making biscuits for supper so I am going to leave this.
Hope everyone has a good week.
I am thankful:
1. The circuit breaker for the bathrooms quit tripping and is working fine.
2. I got a camcorder with Mom’s help.
3. I got a haircut that everyone seems to like.
4. I met with one of my classmates, gave her a gift bag full of goodies, and she apologized for being mean to me when we were in school. We had a wonderful time together.
5. I bought two books and a London Fog coat at Sam’s.
6. I bought one of the art books I have been wanting very much at Borders.
7. Even though we got caught up in horrible traffic, we got Carrie Leigh’s graduation cake and ice cream home without ruining them.
8. When Mom came down with an earache and sore throat Thursday evening I was able to get her an appointment Friday and took her to see the nurse practitioner. We got meds and she is already feeling better.
9. Mom enjoyed going to Carrie Leigh’s graduation from technical college and I stayed home.
10. I have read sixty books so far this year.
11. Ricky requested we become friends on Facebook and we chatted for a long while.
Wednesday evening, Hope and I walked one mile. I learned the next morning that Ray Melbert Ford, Jr. was executed for double murder.
Thursday, we stayed home and I read and computed. Mom was on her clear liquid diet and very weak. I completed my thankful list and a journal entry after learning about Ray’s execution. Hope and I walked one mile.
Friday, I woke up at 2:45am. I could not go back to sleep because I was worried over Mom. I read and computed. I mixed Mom’s prep at 5:00am and woke her at 7:00am to drink it. We went to the diagnostic center and the test was performed. The results showed Mom just has Diverticulitis. We have known about that for years, so it was nothing new to worry about. We stopped by the library and I returned some books and picked up one on hold and a few others off the new arrivals shelves. We ate lunch at Wendy’s and Mom paid for mine. She said it was to thank me for taking care of her during her test preparation and taking her for the test. It was a nice gesture. I finished reading From Eternity to Here by Sean Carroll. It was a good book for one on scientific theory, but it really did not give a definitive answer for what time is. I learned a lot about different theories, but I already had almost as clear a definition of time at the beginning of the book as I did at the end. I think anyone who likes scientific explanations would like the book. Hope and I walked two miles.
Saturday, we went to Sam’s Club to pick up Mom’s medicine. I bought a book, The Love Dare Day by Day, to give to Alex when he gets married. I also bought a bottle of wine and June’s issue of O Magazine. Mom asked me if I wanted to get a video camera, because I have been wanting one forever and looking at them a lot recently. I decided that even though I had to borrow the money from her, I would get one. I wanted it so I could take video of her and of Alex, and would have a record in case something should happen to either of them. I chose the Canon FS300 which uses a SD card for memory and came with a carrying case. I picked up a 32GB SD card to go with the camera and bought the three year warranty which extends to four years because we have the Advantage Plus membership. Altogether it was almost $400.00, but I think it will be well worth the cost. When I returned home, I discovered how complicated the camcorder is. I think it is worse than the computer or VCR. I usually think I am fairly technically adept, but geez, this thing boggles the mind. Hope and I walked two miles.
This morning, I got up and did some re-reading of the manual for the camcorder and realized the memory card did have to be initialized. I managed to get that done. I am just taking it easy today. I have read and responded to some email. I logged onto Facebook and checked out what was going on there. Mom’s best friend brought subs for lunch, so I am outta here.
I hope everyone has a great day!
When I was a young teenager, please forgive me I cannot remember the exact age, I had a boyfriend that I adored. One day, we were in his house alone and something scary happened. We were in his parents bedroom and he pulled out a pistol. He loaded a couple of bullets into it. Then he held the gun to my head, spun the cylinder, and pulled the trigger. He did it three times before I ran away in terror.
I learned this morning that last night this particular boyfriend of mine was executed for murdering an ex-girlfriend and her niece twenty-four years ago.
But for the grace of God, it could have been my family that had such a tragedy with which to deal. I am so sorry for the family that lost loved ones. I am also sorry for his family that has had to live with the pain of what he did for so many years. I pray all involved find some closure now.
I have to live with the fact that if I had told someone, back then, what happened to me that maybe the tragedy could have been prevented. I feel guilty for staying silent.
I am thankful:
1. Alex and I are keeping in close communication.
2. I found some great books at Barnes & Noble on Saturday.
3. I got a new comforter to eventually replace the one the dogs have messed up with their little paws.
4. I survived many times when I could have easily been dead.
5. I stay busy enough to avoid loneliness most of the time.
6. My writing helps me maintain a semblance of stability.
7. I slept well last night.
8. Technology keeps advancing into areas that were fiction years ago.
9. Prayer is effective and miracles do happen.
10. My mother and I have a better relationship now than we did when I was younger.
11. I have my sweet Hope.
12. I picked some books for Mom that she is enjoying reading.
13. We have telephones, computers, and the internet, which let us stay in touch with those we love even at great distances.
14. The television has an off button.
15. Enough people still read books to keep publishers in business, so books are still available to me.