365 Creativity Project-Day 189

Journal entry:

Journal 7-16-20120001

I assure you the story is true. It goes to show how far I have come from those days of complete mental incapacitation. I am very thankful that I have adequate medical coverage at present, without it I would probably not have medication to keep me functional. I am very fortunate.

Puzzling It Out

Picking up the parts
Of life scattered all about,
Keeping the pieces
For times when there is a need,
Not knowing what is required.

You have to live like
Everything matters without
Worrying over
What may eventually
Happen to you in your life.

Holding on tightly,
Never fully letting go,
Because time remains
For making the very best
Of every given moment.

You collect the hours,
Adding them up into days,
Creating meaning
In each fast passing moment,
Making your own destiny.

Life is wonderful,
A sweet dream of happiness
You can claim as true
Expecting such great success
To bring you blessings always.

Jo Ann J. A. Jordan
Monday, July 16, 2012

Photographs:

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Oak…

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Oak…

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Roses…

I am grateful:

1.   Laura woke me this morning with a call asking for information about my condition.
2.   A friend of mine called who I had not heard from in some time.
3.   We drove to the country store to pick up some tomatoes.
4.   I managed to complete our Bible reading even though I really did not want to do it.
5.   The afternoon thunderstorm did not last long.

I hope you have had a productive Monday. Please take a few moments now to do something creative. I know you can write or make a beautiful contribution to your day.

As a prompt today, write about something embarrassing that happened to you, which you now consider funny. I am sure you have a situation like this, I think everyone does. I recounted one of mine, so your turn. If you use this prompt, please leave a link to your work so others can share in your creation.

I am so glad you stopped by my blog today. I hope the experience was pleasant, if you feel inclined, leave a comment letting me know your thoughts.

Always,
Jo Ann

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  1. #1 by Laura Diane on July 16, 2012 - 11:17 pm

    How brave of you to share such a personal story. You have come a long way and help me better understand the trials some of my clients and patients may be experiencing as they try to deal with their illnesses and insecurities.

    Are you possibly strong enough to write a book of poems or essays related to some of those experiences in order to help others better understand what we haven’t experienced?

    I’m glad you now have adequate medical coverage and that your medications allow you to function and live a joyful life.
    Laura

    • #2 by Jo Ann J. A. Jordan on July 17, 2012 - 12:11 am

      Laura, Mom reminded me of the story today when I was talking to my daughter-in-law, Laura, about my illness. She is taking abnormal psychology in college right now and interviewed me today about Schizo-Affective Disorder. I could think of nothing to write, so I shared the tale. I think of it as a kind of funny story now, but it is also somewhat embarrassing. I was in very bad shape at that time. Having your clothes stolen when you are hospitalized is no fun though.

      I could write more about those things, but they are difficult experiences, and some are very unpleasant. When I was attacked by the Black Panther in the same setting it was awful. There was little hands on supervision in the mental institution and I hated it there. I am not sure people would believe some of the things I have gone through. My disease has not always been kind… in fact, it is not really even now, but I have learned to be happy in most circumstances.

      The Medicare and medically needy Medicaid have made it so I can stay on my prescriptions, which has improved my quality of life significantly, but I honestly worry a great deal that those benefits might be taken away. I guess that is one reason I am often terrorized by threats to social programs. I know how really awful life can be without help…

      I share a good bit on this blog, right now it is my medium, perhaps in the future I will feel strong enough to delve into other ways of sharing my story. Not sure there is a market for it, but maybe…

  2. #3 by Kiril on July 17, 2012 - 1:56 am

    My friend, thank you for sharing this story, and your great poem. As you know, my own father spent 18 years in mental institutions so, having seen my share of things, from the time I was 9 years old, I know from where your are coming from.

    You are a brave and courageous person, with a God Given talent for writing that is very special indeed.

    Hang in there, and onward and upward! 😀

    • #4 by Jo Ann J. A. Jordan on July 17, 2012 - 2:08 am

      Kiril, many people have no idea what goes on in those places. The fact that anyone survives them is quite miraculous. In those days it was very difficult. You have probably seen some rough situations.

      I am glad you liked the poem. I usually write my poems first, like today. The journal entries are often harder for me to find inspiration to do, maybe I use the energy creating poems then have little left.

      I am a fortunate person. God has greatly blessed me. If I am brave, it is only because I must be to survive.

      My writing is a great gift to me and I try to share it with others. I hope maybe I show others life can be beautiful in spite of hardship, because I have found it so.

      I am hanging in, things go well for me. There are many great things in my life and the future is bright.

  3. #5 by kevincameronartist on July 17, 2012 - 8:27 pm

    Appreciate your honesty and openness. Thank you for sharing.

    • #6 by Jo Ann J. A. Jordan on July 18, 2012 - 12:01 am

      Thank you Kevin. I appreciate your reading. Sometimes I pick strange subjects, but life has been interesting.

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